July 27 04

Ugh, I'm not feeling good today. I didn't sleep well, it was hard to fall asleep. I had one of those dreams - the ones where I can't seem do what I'm trying to do. In this one, I was trying to get ready to to go school and was running behind. I missed the bus, so I was asking my parents to take me. I already 10 minutes late to a test...and I even remember that it was a test in my economics class I had in high school (which were always seriously bad news). I was trying to hurry my dad up, but no matter what I did, I couldn't get him to go...and I totally missed the test. I think that I have these can't-get-anything-done dreams, when I'm really stressed, and I feel like I don't have control of what's going on in my life. Which is very much how I felt last night.

All that reminds me of how tired I am people who think they know me and think they can tell me what to do. I almost told off a friend last night because he was going on a one sided story - and telling me how to handle a situation based off of that. Pissed me the hell off - but I was nice and just backed off. I went to bed really frustrated, which is probably why I couldn't sleep.